Sould Have Said No

I should have said no,

I should have stayed at home,

I should have just taken the easy way out,

Tell them I didn't have time...

I should have stayed at home, facebooking, mafia-ing,

I shouldn't have done it,

You shouldn't have given me so little time,

I should have said no,

And maybe I would be in a better state tonight.

don't ask. it doesn't even go with the tun of the song...

just seemed like something nice to do instead of starting of with a really long rant.

why oh why did I do it?

do what? a lot of things...

I've done a lot of things that I regret.

And this just adds to the long list of regrets...

let's hear a story:

One fine day, Kelly went to school as usual and got the keys from the Dreaded Slave-Master. She opened the library, took a brief trip to 4 Balau and played with a broken Rubik's Cube.

Then, after much prompting from the Dreaded Slave-Master, she got to work doing stock check wondering how we could all finish it in two days.

The stock check was fine. It wasn't as tiring as the days before and she was in an okay mood. The okay mood turned into an optimistic mood when people from 3 Balau and 3 Belian came to help. Work was getting done really quickly amnd it seemed like there was hope of finishing it in time. Kelly even thought that she could start doing the Dreaded Slave-Master's summary that day.

She went home at 4.30 with a little headache. The headache was forgotten as she got home and took a bath. Suddenly, she remembered the little blue thumbdrive sitting in her bag. It had been delivered by a prefect from Pui Cheng, the president of the Leo Club and Kelly was supposed to get some stuff printed by the next day.

She asked her father whether it would trouble him so much to send her to a print shop to get the stuff printed. He didn't mind and they happily set off. Her optimistic mood turned to dread as she realized there was way more than 20 pages - which was her estimation - to be printed.

Time flew by as Kelly watched the guy print page after page, document after document. She was starting to get worries. It was 5.40 and they had already been at the print shop for half an hour. Knowing that her father usually leaves at 5.30 sharp to find a good parking space and pick her brother up, she considered many possibilities, neither of which was better than the current strategy: wait.

Finally, the printing was completed. Kelly smiled in relief. The man took the stack of papers to the back of the shop and began counting them. Occasionally, he would stop to make a little note. Kelly stared at the man, hoping that it would be done soon.

Just as she thought he would never finish, the man straightened up and heaved the pile of papers toward her. After briefly consulting his partner, he showed us the amount. Kelly drew in a breath. She had been given RM50 by Pui Cheng to pay. It turned out that RM50 wasn't near enough! (What do you expect, there was 302 pages to be printed!) So she had to borrow money from her dad.

She half ran out of the shop, hoping her dad wouldn't be too mad about the long wait. Wishing she had told Pui Cheng she couldn't print it, she waited for the long lecture to come. It didn't come. Instead, her dad complained about giving so little time for her to get so much printed. She nodded, glad for not being the subject of his scoldings.

She rushed home and realized that her headache had returned. Wishing she had taken a panadol earlier, she rummaged through the fridge in search for it. After a while, she gave up and went online to rant. Sadly, Hui Min wasn't online so she chose Siew Ho instead.

After deciding not to spoil his day anymore, she composed her newest blog post... Which is HERE!

awww. it sounds like a happy ending.

not exactly how I felt just now, but waiting a while before completing this post has made me less angry and frustrated and diminished the feeling of being a total failure.

Therefore, I can conclude that if I had finished my post just now, it wouldn't be half as optimistic as it was.

...but there's a voice inside my head saying

"You'll never reach it"...

such a pessimistic line for an optimistic, inspirational song...