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ACTION!
SMKDJ Board of Librarians
Proudly Present:
MPS 2009
lights,
camera,
action!
everything is all set. all we are missing is the last piece: YOU! :)
everything is all set. all we are missing is the last piece: YOU! :)
Will I Ever See You Again?
maybe i might not seem to care. but theres something you should know:
i care.
i'm just... very good at hiding my feelings...
it seems like i'm expected to always be able to keep my emotions in.
i've missed you.
why do you have to go again? cant it be like the old times?
will i ever see you again?
i care.
i'm just... very good at hiding my feelings...
it seems like i'm expected to always be able to keep my emotions in.
i've missed you.
why do you have to go again? cant it be like the old times?
Fine.
be that way. why isit when i feel happy about what we did yesterday for exhibition someone has to bring me down???
GRR.
can't i be happy in PEACE?????????????
grrr. I ADMIT. IM NOT PERFECT. NOW GO AWAY!!! YOU'VE ALREADY RUINED THE REST OF THE NIGHT FOR ME.
*sigh*
im sorry la...
some people are very talented in spoiling my mood. i shall not mention any names, but...
right now i wanna KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL u
GRR.
can't i be happy in PEACE?????????????
grrr. I ADMIT. IM NOT PERFECT. NOW GO AWAY!!! YOU'VE ALREADY RUINED THE REST OF THE NIGHT FOR ME.
*sigh*
im sorry la...
some people are very talented in spoiling my mood. i shall not mention any names, but...
right now i wanna KILLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL u
I'm Sorry
just... sorry. i'm not the person you think i am.
i know you expect a lot from me. too much maybe.
i'm not that type of person. i'm not as good as you think i am.
i'm sorry. i have nothing to say...
i'm sorry, i can't be the person you want me to be.
just... sorry. words cannot describe how i feel right now...
though... some might get quite close...failure? worthless? maybe...
just... sorry.
i know you expect a lot from me. too much maybe.
i'm not that type of person. i'm not as good as you think i am.
i'm sorry. i have nothing to say...
i'm sorry, i can't be the person you want me to be.
just... sorry. words cannot describe how i feel right now...
though... some might get quite close...
just... sorry.
*sigh*
great. i feel so... depressed. just great.
and i thought that i actually got over that chapter in my life...
i feel so... useless. like, well... a failure. and i suppose, its kinda true.
nothing anyone says can change that.
imagine being stuck in a tunnel without a light. you don't know which way the end is, but if you stop walking, you will never find your way out. but if you keep walking, theres no guarantee that you'll find your way out.
you might be going the wrong way.
and i thought that i actually got over that chapter in my life...
i feel so... useless. like, well... a failure. and i suppose, its kinda true.
nothing anyone says can change that.
imagine being stuck in a tunnel without a light. you don't know which way the end is, but if you stop walking, you will never find your way out. but if you keep walking, theres no guarantee that you'll find your way out.
you might be going the wrong way.
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
They say you feel what I do
They say you’re here every moment
Will you stay?
Stay ’till the darkness leaves
Stay here with me
I know you’re busy, I know I’m just one
But you might be the only one who sees me
The only one to save me
Why is it so hard?
Why can’t you just take me?
I don’t have much to go
Before I fade completely
Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
The only one to save mine
How are you so strong?
What’s it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something
Your love, a complete mystery to me
Are you there watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
Do you cry, do you cry with me?
Cry with me tonight
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
yes, i know im repeating myself. but... its what i feel right now.
Message fron Yi Qian
i'm sure you've got it before. its quite a common chain message. anyway, some of the parts made me think...
When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.
i seriously hope this is true. coz... i feel like a failure right now.
Something good will happen to you between 12 in the morning
and
four o'clock pm
tomorrow,
hmm. what about i find out how 2 multiply myself so i can watch over them do exhibition, be there 4 brenda's actors thing, LEO BOD meeting and maybe an extra one in case.
if that could happen tomorrow about 7.30a.m., i'd be really thankful.
so, im sending this message to as many ppl as possible. LOL
seriously... im lost. i hope a certain someone doesnt come n see this. i'll get a lectire 2mrw.
oh well, as long as im quite angry, it wont matter how insulting or hurting anyone's words are. so... siew ho, make me angry 2mrw b4 recess. thx. haha
When you make the biggest mistake ever,
something good comes from it.
i seriously hope this is true. coz... i feel like a failure right now.
Something good will happen to you between 12 in the morning
and
four o'clock pm
tomorrow,
hmm. what about i find out how 2 multiply myself so i can watch over them do exhibition, be there 4 brenda's actors thing, LEO BOD meeting and maybe an extra one in case.
if that could happen tomorrow about 7.30a.m., i'd be really thankful.
so, im sending this message to as many ppl as possible. LOL
seriously... im lost. i hope a certain someone doesnt come n see this. i'll get a lectire 2mrw.
oh well, as long as im quite angry, it wont matter how insulting or hurting anyone's words are. so... siew ho, make me angry 2mrw b4 recess. thx. haha
BUSY
haha. decided to copy huimin's title... it seems that i hav neglected my blog + facebook for a while.
BUSY. agree with u, sis. BUSY.
MPS! great.
SHIT
4got. gotta do report. ARHHHH
BUSY. agree with u, sis. BUSY.
MPS! great.
SHIT
4got. gotta do report. ARHHHH
MPO
im so glad i decided to go. eventhough i have to do the report and there were no friends, it was worth going.
10.45 am: reached kelana jaya LRT station. saw hannah. khai seng came not long after that.
after sabreena, pui cheng and alice came, we went upstairs, or whatever. then, we just realized that we missed the train.
if we were like a fewseconds fatser, we could have boarded it. oh well. khai seng decided to take pics for report. regret not bringin my camera...
got to KLCC. went to dewan filharmonik. waited for hilary and adrian.
performance was awesome, din really like the mime. nothing that impressive. it would be ok without him. but the music. was awesome. haha
went 4 lunch at the food court. then went home.
lesson learnt: im an introvert. maybe? i only talk when im talked to. IF theres no friend there
10.45 am: reached kelana jaya LRT station. saw hannah. khai seng came not long after that.
after sabreena, pui cheng and alice came, we went upstairs, or whatever. then, we just realized that we missed the train.
if we were like a fewseconds fatser, we could have boarded it. oh well. khai seng decided to take pics for report. regret not bringin my camera...
got to KLCC. went to dewan filharmonik. waited for hilary and adrian.
performance was awesome, din really like the mime. nothing that impressive. it would be ok without him. but the music. was awesome. haha
went 4 lunch at the food court. then went home.
lesson learnt: im an introvert. maybe? i only talk when im talked to. IF theres no friend there
Sports Day
haiz... should have brought my camera... had to make do with pn m's camera...
ok. here goes...
7.30 - arrive. *blank* don't see anyone i know...
watched maju people marching... not bad.
went into stadium. *blank* loast again. saw aili + natalie.
then lost again. saw elaine. she looked lost too.
went on to the track to take attendance. had to squat. legs hurt...
in the end, pn farahnaz didnt come so we didnt take attendance i think.
followed the yellow people to the kesatria place...
lost AGAIN.
then i saw jia yun. thank goodness.
then she ditched me to go find quartermasters and pn chia.
got stuck with all the marchers bags. as usual.
always i get stuck with all their bags because i dont march.
screamed and clapped like mad when kesatria marched. lol. wanted to get 1st for semangat.
the roar sounded like our LEO roll call. haha
after marching, we went to the other side of the stadium. i changed into maju shirt. haha. :)
sat in maju and cheered for kesatria. lol.
got whacked by huimin. thanks to pn m la.
she said everytime i say "kesatria" huimin has to whack me.
luckily for huimin, she's my sis n i was in a good mood.
or... (up to you to decide...)
chatted with the SCARY TEACHER. guess who it is... and huimin. and tanushia.
then pn m started with the MPS EXHIBITION TALK. great.
called gheek n let pn m tell him everything. haha.
(its not very surprising that he ran away as soon as we turned away)
got quite hyper and shouted for kesatria while huimin shouted for maju.
became pn m n pn nordian's personal slave.
it was like: "kelly, mana pn monica punya senarai?"
then i had to go run and get it from nomadic pn m who was chasing maju people back to the maju territory. haha
then: "kelly, pass this to pn nordian."
haiz. ran down n gave it to pn nordian then ran up again.
really pity those people pn m recruited into slavery today.
"go take this bag and collect rubbish there."
"go distribute the hot dogs, or else you have to eat it all."
"heres the bag. go collect the rubbish."
"take that bottle of water or I'll demerit you 10."
HAHA.
if it was me or huimin, we would just say "whatever" and pretend we didnt hear her say that. HAHA
n i regret sitting in front of pn m and near the rubbush bag.
she would just like, give me the stuff she wants to throw. like her water bottle and her sausage-less hot dog.
then, she raided the maju food stash. she took all the apples. "to make salad."
and then, she took all the bananas.
huimin and i found a new pastime. asking people who she asked to pick up rubbish to throw away her hat. her "rubbish" hat. HAHA.
it annoyed her. A LOT. hahaha.
then we got to hiding it. haha. we covered it with bags and bottles.
childish? i know... haha
oh well. sports was fun. eventhough kesatria didnt win, i thought they were great.
another chapter ends, another chapter is beginning. and its one i'm not really looking forward to.
MPS
ok. here goes...
7.30 - arrive. *blank* don't see anyone i know...
watched maju people marching... not bad.
went into stadium. *blank* loast again. saw aili + natalie.
then lost again. saw elaine. she looked lost too.
went on to the track to take attendance. had to squat. legs hurt...
in the end, pn farahnaz didnt come so we didnt take attendance i think.
followed the yellow people to the kesatria place...
lost AGAIN.
then i saw jia yun. thank goodness.
then she ditched me to go find quartermasters and pn chia.
got stuck with all the marchers bags. as usual.
always i get stuck with all their bags because i dont march.
screamed and clapped like mad when kesatria marched. lol. wanted to get 1st for semangat.
the roar sounded like our LEO roll call. haha
after marching, we went to the other side of the stadium. i changed into maju shirt. haha. :)
sat in maju and cheered for kesatria. lol.
got whacked by huimin. thanks to pn m la.
she said everytime i say "kesatria" huimin has to whack me.
luckily for huimin, she's my sis n i was in a good mood.
or... (up to you to decide...)
chatted with the SCARY TEACHER. guess who it is... and huimin. and tanushia.
then pn m started with the MPS EXHIBITION TALK. great.
called gheek n let pn m tell him everything. haha.
(its not very surprising that he ran away as soon as we turned away)
got quite hyper and shouted for kesatria while huimin shouted for maju.
became pn m n pn nordian's personal slave.
it was like: "kelly, mana pn monica punya senarai?"
then i had to go run and get it from nomadic pn m who was chasing maju people back to the maju territory. haha
then: "kelly, pass this to pn nordian."
haiz. ran down n gave it to pn nordian then ran up again.
really pity those people pn m recruited into slavery today.
"go take this bag and collect rubbish there."
"go distribute the hot dogs, or else you have to eat it all."
"heres the bag. go collect the rubbish."
"take that bottle of water or I'll demerit you 10."
HAHA.
if it was me or huimin, we would just say "whatever" and pretend we didnt hear her say that. HAHA
n i regret sitting in front of pn m and near the rubbush bag.
she would just like, give me the stuff she wants to throw. like her water bottle and her sausage-less hot dog.
then, she raided the maju food stash. she took all the apples. "to make salad."
and then, she took all the bananas.
huimin and i found a new pastime. asking people who she asked to pick up rubbish to throw away her hat. her "rubbish" hat. HAHA.
it annoyed her. A LOT. hahaha.
then we got to hiding it. haha. we covered it with bags and bottles.
childish? i know... haha
oh well. sports was fun. eventhough kesatria didnt win, i thought they were great.
another chapter ends, another chapter is beginning. and its one i'm not really looking forward to.
MPS
Camp: Day 2
thank goodness morning jog was cancelled.
this was how my first night was like:
12.30a.m. - Pn M bugged us to go to sleep
1.00a.m. - went to bed. can still hear leannza n the others playing outside. got annoyed. wanted to go out n scold them...
2.00a.m. - woke up. cold... *shivers*
6.50a.m. - boys were noisy, woke up.
7.30a.m. - got out from bed. by that time, everyone was awake...
we had breakfast... which was ok la. not as bad as lunch.
after that was the dreaded COMPASS MARCH. my sense of direction sucks.
but what was really worrying was that our group was being led by the person who got lost in ATRIA for 2 HOURS...
ITIANNE!!!
after "marching" for 900m (approx), feeding mosquitos, dodging low branches, crawling on the forest floor, snapping branches, screaming for jason, counting steps, etc, etc...
we went to the BEACH!
(to those who were stuck outside the dorm, keyless, it was PN M'S idea. kill her. haha)
it was... nothing to look at. it was high tide anyway... so we kind of wasted time standing around there...
saw the obstacle course on our way back to the dorm. most of them went and played with the balancing thing. i didnt. my balance is bad enough on solid ground...
so as we walked back to the dorm, we were discussing stories to tell the other librarians which generally went like this:
"we finished first and got bored so we went to the beach"
i shall not say whether or not it is true. its up to you to decide...
after that, we played cards before heading to lunch...
went looking for the pool after lunch...
em was "advertising" lol
jes decided to go skinny dipping. LOL. haha. geddit?
just a little reminder that the noisy librarians from DJ dine here.
this was how my first night was like:
12.30a.m. - Pn M bugged us to go to sleep
1.00a.m. - went to bed. can still hear leannza n the others playing outside. got annoyed. wanted to go out n scold them...
2.00a.m. - woke up. cold... *shivers*
6.50a.m. - boys were noisy, woke up.
7.30a.m. - got out from bed. by that time, everyone was awake...
we had breakfast... which was ok la. not as bad as lunch.
after that was the dreaded COMPASS MARCH. my sense of direction sucks.
but what was really worrying was that our group was being led by the person who got lost in ATRIA for 2 HOURS...
ITIANNE!!!
after "marching" for 900m (approx), feeding mosquitos, dodging low branches, crawling on the forest floor, snapping branches, screaming for jason, counting steps, etc, etc...
we went to the BEACH!
(to those who were stuck outside the dorm, keyless, it was PN M'S idea. kill her. haha)
it was... nothing to look at. it was high tide anyway... so we kind of wasted time standing around there...
saw the obstacle course on our way back to the dorm. most of them went and played with the balancing thing. i didnt. my balance is bad enough on solid ground...
so as we walked back to the dorm, we were discussing stories to tell the other librarians which generally went like this:
"we finished first and got bored so we went to the beach"
i shall not say whether or not it is true. its up to you to decide...
after that, we played cards before heading to lunch...
went looking for the pool after lunch...
em was "advertising" lol
jes decided to go skinny dipping. LOL. haha. geddit?
just a little reminder that the noisy librarians from DJ dine here.had ice breaking and telematches after that. our team won one game and got 3rd for the secong round.
our DEAR form 5s decided not to show up for world quiz so, to the delight of most of us, we split into new groups. haha.
world quiz was... well, it sucked for us. we knew the answers. but we couldnt find those little purple papers the dear form 4s hid... *sigh*
anyway, we happily went for a swim after that. AHHHHHHHHHH. nothing better than a nice swim on hot day.
we crazy librarians had two rounds of Mafia: Jacuzzi Version. it involved splashing the executed people... haha.
then went and swam a little with leannza. everyone else was too lazy to get out of the jacuzzi.
pn m was erm... approached by these two people with a suggestion that we didnt like.
story night was fun, because we had Neal on the team.
we got seven words and were supposed to make up a story from it.
librarian
vampire
hound
angry
sad
crown
clause
yep. and we made a story about vampire librarians of smkdj who were ruled by... well, u know. the evil queen. guess who it is?
ok that was sarcastic. we all know who Her Royal Highness the Queen of the Library is...
learnt a new game: Bullshit. (Bluff)
super addictive. jes kepty bullshitting other people. at the wrong times. haha.
she just couldnt keep it in. she would like, bite her lip and then burst out: "BULLSHIT!"
then, she would open the cards and sigh and put it all in her hand.
HAHA.
our DEAR form 5s decided not to show up for world quiz so, to the delight of most of us, we split into new groups. haha.
world quiz was... well, it sucked for us. we knew the answers. but we couldnt find those little purple papers the dear form 4s hid... *sigh*
anyway, we happily went for a swim after that. AHHHHHHHHHH. nothing better than a nice swim on hot day.
we crazy librarians had two rounds of Mafia: Jacuzzi Version. it involved splashing the executed people... haha.
then went and swam a little with leannza. everyone else was too lazy to get out of the jacuzzi.
pn m was erm... approached by these two people with a suggestion that we didnt like.
story night was fun, because we had Neal on the team.
we got seven words and were supposed to make up a story from it.
librarian
vampire
hound
angry
sad
crown
clause
yep. and we made a story about vampire librarians of smkdj who were ruled by... well, u know. the evil queen. guess who it is?
ok that was sarcastic. we all know who Her Royal Highness the Queen of the Library is...
learnt a new game: Bullshit. (Bluff)
super addictive. jes kepty bullshitting other people. at the wrong times. haha.
she just couldnt keep it in. she would like, bite her lip and then burst out: "BULLSHIT!"
then, she would open the cards and sigh and put it all in her hand.
HAHA.
Camp: Day 1
the first thing i notice when we turned in was the orange bus parked in front of DJ.
fine, i was wrong. i expected the bus to arrive later.
we all gathered and were asked to write down our handphone numbers.
*rolls eyes*
it's not like leannza, keli, yimay, sze yin, eva and loads of other librarians don't already have my number.
(yes, i know i'm going to get a comment from a certain wordsworthfan, saying how its a security measure and blahblahblah. i know it is.
got a call from dear yi qian. he couldn't come to see us. n blahblahblah. forgot what he sadi already. haha
anyway. we gawked at gheek's small bag and wondered how he could possibly have fitted all his essentials in there.
the bus left early. another surprise. i remember in 2007, we were sitting in the unmoving bus for more than an hour before it started. how nice.
d journey was... quite boring. not long enough though. some crazy librarians started playing cards. in the bus. and we formed a six-brained team which eventually won the game. haha
arrived early at melaka. obviously, the journey did not take 3 hours. that would be madness. we could get as far as muar or somewhere in that time using my dad's car.
we were given... erm. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6! hours to explore melaka. and eat lunch. and dinner.
she has a "taking picture" pose
JUMP IN!
first, we went to get some FOOD! haha. chicken rice ball. what else?
leannza and the form 4 gang came to the same shop later.
we visited a few places. erm. christ church, erm. nvm. i cant rmb. i just know that 6 hours was way too long.
ok, we literally walked till we wanted to drop. shopped a little in jonker gallery.
we bought this drink in a glass bottle that looked like it was alcohol but didnt actually contain any.
gheek purposely tore off the wrapper and drank it in front of pn m. haha. then we decided to laze about on the bridge. we passed the chicken rice ball shop where we ate a while ago and saw a massive, ok not so massive but a long queue.
the librarians can't keep out of a library... even if its packed with chinese books.
then, we spotted a guy in the melaka river. swimming? catching fish? we couldn't tell.
so gheek went to find out.
apparently, he was looking for old coins. he even showe gheek one but he said there were no markings. oh well. it was probably too old.
then we decided to do jump shots. haha.
after aimlessly walking around, we decided to return to the quayside. took stupid pics of us "advertising" the drink. lol. and got a pic of gheek acting drunk. had coconut jelly. really refreshing.
coconut jelly anyone?
lol. drinks
he's drunk
then we walked about in the mall or whatever it is for half an hour.
returned to the bus and told pn m, amazing race style that she was the last team to arrive and was eliminated from the camp. lol.
took ages to get to eagle ranch. we were like, opne hour behind schedule. so ice breaking was postponed.
the dorm wasnt as bad as we expected. it had air cond and stuff. they even provided us with towels, which we were not expecting.
but
BUT
the toilets were like. ew.
we freaked out when we saw it. the shower rooms had like half door. on top, you can actually see people's faces and at the bottom, you can see their legs. and they couldnt lock.
in the end, the gys had to wait for all the girls to bathe first. (we took 3 hours to bathe. just the girls)
mafia-ed the rest of the night till lights out. gheek thought us to play bluff. or bullshit.
jes kept bullshitting people at the wrong times. haha. she was damn cute.
and pn m had to come and chase the guys back into their dorm. lights out was at 12 but some people played cards outside and annoyed the whole dorm of girls because they were too loud.
and thats the end of day 1.
fine, i was wrong. i expected the bus to arrive later.
we all gathered and were asked to write down our handphone numbers.
*rolls eyes*
it's not like leannza, keli, yimay, sze yin, eva and loads of other librarians don't already have my number.
(yes, i know i'm going to get a comment from a certain wordsworthfan, saying how its a security measure and blahblahblah. i know it is.
got a call from dear yi qian. he couldn't come to see us. n blahblahblah. forgot what he sadi already. haha
anyway. we gawked at gheek's small bag and wondered how he could possibly have fitted all his essentials in there.
the bus left early. another surprise. i remember in 2007, we were sitting in the unmoving bus for more than an hour before it started. how nice.
d journey was... quite boring. not long enough though. some crazy librarians started playing cards. in the bus. and we formed a six-brained team which eventually won the game. haha
arrived early at melaka. obviously, the journey did not take 3 hours. that would be madness. we could get as far as muar or somewhere in that time using my dad's car.
we were given... erm. 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6! hours to explore melaka. and eat lunch. and dinner.
she has a "taking picture" pose
JUMP IN! first, we went to get some FOOD! haha. chicken rice ball. what else?
leannza and the form 4 gang came to the same shop later.
we visited a few places. erm. christ church, erm. nvm. i cant rmb. i just know that 6 hours was way too long.
ok, we literally walked till we wanted to drop. shopped a little in jonker gallery.we bought this drink in a glass bottle that looked like it was alcohol but didnt actually contain any.
gheek purposely tore off the wrapper and drank it in front of pn m. haha. then we decided to laze about on the bridge. we passed the chicken rice ball shop where we ate a while ago and saw a massive, ok not so massive but a long queue.
the librarians can't keep out of a library... even if its packed with chinese books. 
then, we spotted a guy in the melaka river. swimming? catching fish? we couldn't tell.
so gheek went to find out.
apparently, he was looking for old coins. he even showe gheek one but he said there were no markings. oh well. it was probably too old.
then we decided to do jump shots. haha.
after aimlessly walking around, we decided to return to the quayside. took stupid pics of us "advertising" the drink. lol. and got a pic of gheek acting drunk. had coconut jelly. really refreshing.
coconut jelly anyone?
lol. drinks
he's drunk
then we walked about in the mall or whatever it is for half an hour.
returned to the bus and told pn m, amazing race style that she was the last team to arrive and was eliminated from the camp. lol.
took ages to get to eagle ranch. we were like, opne hour behind schedule. so ice breaking was postponed.
the dorm wasnt as bad as we expected. it had air cond and stuff. they even provided us with towels, which we were not expecting.
but
BUT
the toilets were like. ew.
we freaked out when we saw it. the shower rooms had like half door. on top, you can actually see people's faces and at the bottom, you can see their legs. and they couldnt lock.
in the end, the gys had to wait for all the girls to bathe first. (we took 3 hours to bathe. just the girls)
mafia-ed the rest of the night till lights out. gheek thought us to play bluff. or bullshit.
jes kept bullshitting people at the wrong times. haha. she was damn cute.
and pn m had to come and chase the guys back into their dorm. lights out was at 12 but some people played cards outside and annoyed the whole dorm of girls because they were too loud.
and thats the end of day 1.
B-A-C-K
well, in case you didnt noticed the not so big title that clearly spells the word BACK, i'm gonna say it again.
KELLY IS BACK FROM CAMP!!! :)
haha. it was so fun!!!
blog about it tomorrow or something. i need to get photos from song you n pn m.
KELLY IS BACK FROM CAMP!!! :)
haha. it was so fun!!!
blog about it tomorrow or something. i need to get photos from song you n pn m.
Forget
what i sadid earlier.
cuz thx 2 a certain keli and yimay, i've got my enthusiasm back. haha
CANT WAIT FOR CAMP!!!
now they r gonna b d ones i kacau late at night if i cant sleep. haha
cuz thx 2 a certain keli and yimay, i've got my enthusiasm back. haha
CANT WAIT FOR CAMP!!!
now they r gonna b d ones i kacau late at night if i cant sleep. haha
Irvine
by Kelly Clarkson
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
They say you feel what I do
They say you're here every moment
Will you stay?
Stay 'till the darkness leaves
Stay here with me
I know you're busy, I know I'm just one
But you might be the only one who sees me
The only one to save me
Why is it so hard?
Why can't you just take me?
I don't have much to go
Before I fade completely
Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
The only one to save mine
How are you so strong?
What's it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something
Your love, a complete mystery to me
Are you there watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
Do you cry, do you cry with me?
Cry with me tonight
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
Are you watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
They say you feel what I do
They say you're here every moment
Will you stay?
Stay 'till the darkness leaves
Stay here with me
I know you're busy, I know I'm just one
But you might be the only one who sees me
The only one to save me
Why is it so hard?
Why can't you just take me?
I don't have much to go
Before I fade completely
Can you feel how cold I am?
Do you cry as I do?
Are you lonely up there all by yourself?
Like I have felt all my life
The only one to save mine
How are you so strong?
What's it like to feel so free?
Your heart is really something
Your love, a complete mystery to me
Are you there watching me?
As I lie here on this floor
Do you cry, do you cry with me?
Cry with me tonight
Are you there?
Are you watching me?
if you look at the lyrics, you'll see that it has nothing to do with irvine.
but the cool thing about this song is that kelly clarkson avtually wrote it in the bathroom of the venue she was performing at. In Irvine. so thats the connection. lol.
probably the emo-est song she's ever recorded.
but the cool thing about this song is that kelly clarkson avtually wrote it in the bathroom of the venue she was performing at. In Irvine. so thats the connection. lol.
probably the emo-est song she's ever recorded.
CAMP 09!
yay. i hope i've got everything packed. cuz im too lazy 2 check again...
hehe. cant wait. i can't wait. i can't wait for 2009 librarian camp.
please dun maff in the bus... its so weird... oh well. probably we wun have enough time to really maff in the bus. although my dad said there will probably be a jam on some highway...
well. i dun care jam or no jam. either way im fine. but if theres no jam n we get extra free time, then im all for no jam. hehe
...
i dunno wad 2 say...
i guess i'll just stop... hmm. somehow im not as excited as i was yesterday...
WHAT'S WRONG WIF ME?
(dun answer...)
hehe. cant wait. i can't wait. i can't wait for 2009 librarian camp.
please dun maff in the bus... its so weird... oh well. probably we wun have enough time to really maff in the bus. although my dad said there will probably be a jam on some highway...
well. i dun care jam or no jam. either way im fine. but if theres no jam n we get extra free time, then im all for no jam. hehe
...
i dunno wad 2 say...
i guess i'll just stop... hmm. somehow im not as excited as i was yesterday...
WHAT'S WRONG WIF ME?
(dun answer...)
before i get too lazy...
before i get too lazy or busy facebboking, i shall blog...
nothing 2 blog abt. haha. 2day they come back frm forum... tomorrow, im going out. haha
wed... we're going for CAMP!!! haha
ok. thats all. nothing 2 say 2day... :)
nothing 2 blog abt. haha. 2day they come back frm forum... tomorrow, im going out. haha
wed... we're going for CAMP!!! haha
ok. thats all. nothing 2 say 2day... :)
100 Truths. (same tag on facebook)
001. Full name – Kelly Ng
002. Nickname(s) - Kel
003. Status – I dunno. Stressed? Bored?
004. Zodiac sign - Virgo
005. Male or female - Female
006. Elementary – SJK (C) Yuk Chai
007. Middle School – DUH. SMKDJ
008. High School – erh. Same? Since middle is like 11-14 or something rite?
009. College – tell u when I get there… hopefully somewhere in the UK or US
010. Hair color – brownish
011. Long or short - long
012. Loud or Quiet – mostly loud but can be very quiet sometimes.
013. Sweats or Jeans – jeans!
014. Phone or Camera – camera!
015. Health freak - nah
016. Drink or Smoke? - neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? - no.
018. Eat or Drink? – EAT! lol
019. Piercings – erm. Earrings.
020. Tattoos – no.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing – earring? Erm 7?
024. First best friend – I dun hav best friends.
025. First award – essay writing competition, I think. Like. Back in std 3
026. First crush – school trip 2 Singapore.
027. First pet – erm. A fish?
028. First big vacation – Singapore school trip.
030. First big birthday – erm. No idea
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating - Nothing.
050. Drinking - H2O
052. I'm about to – no idea. sit in front of d comp 4 a few more hours and hope some1 will come on9?
053. Listening to – Kelly Clarkson - Just Missed The Train
054. Plans for today – on9, read. maybe draw
055. Waiting for – 10th June. Eagle Ranch Camp!!! :) more leeches + snakes. YAY!
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? - dunno
059. Want to get married? - dunno
060. Careers in mind – maybe a photographer? graphic designer? dunno lar.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes - Eyes!
070. Shorter or taller? – taller!
073. Nice stomach or nice arms – cant decide. Stomach. Hehe. Dunno la.
074. Sensitive or loud – sensitive?
075. Hook-up or relationship – wad a question!
077. Trouble maker or hesitant – a bit of both.
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts – doubt it.
081. Ran away from home – no point.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense – nah. I dun need knives 2 defend myself.
083. Killed somebody – erm. i shall leave this up 2 u 2 decide. muahahahahahaha
084. Broken someone's heart – dunno. Probably. Maybe.
085. Been arrested – nope. too smart. lol
087. Cried when someone died – dun ask. Isn’t it a stupid question?
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself - DUH
090. Miracles - depends
091. Love at first sight - no
092. Heaven – yea. sorta
093. Santa Claus - no
094. Sex on the first date – wad a question!
095. Kiss on the first date – who cares?
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now – yup but it’s for me to know and for you to find out.n its not wad u think it is…
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life – nope.
099. Do you believe in God – seriously? No.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people- yea…
TAG 10 PPL:
1. Huimin. hahaha
2. Yimay
3. Eva
4-10. anyone. haha
002. Nickname(s) - Kel
003. Status – I dunno. Stressed? Bored?
004. Zodiac sign - Virgo
005. Male or female - Female
006. Elementary – SJK (C) Yuk Chai
007. Middle School – DUH. SMKDJ
008. High School – erh. Same? Since middle is like 11-14 or something rite?
009. College – tell u when I get there… hopefully somewhere in the UK or US
010. Hair color – brownish
011. Long or short - long
012. Loud or Quiet – mostly loud but can be very quiet sometimes.
013. Sweats or Jeans – jeans!
014. Phone or Camera – camera!
015. Health freak - nah
016. Drink or Smoke? - neither
017. Do you have a crush on someone? - no.
018. Eat or Drink? – EAT! lol
019. Piercings – erm. Earrings.
020. Tattoos – no.
FIRSTS:
023. First piercing – earring? Erm 7?
024. First best friend – I dun hav best friends.
025. First award – essay writing competition, I think. Like. Back in std 3
026. First crush – school trip 2 Singapore.
027. First pet – erm. A fish?
028. First big vacation – Singapore school trip.
030. First big birthday – erm. No idea
CURRENTLY:
049. Eating - Nothing.
050. Drinking - H2O
052. I'm about to – no idea. sit in front of d comp 4 a few more hours and hope some1 will come on9?
053. Listening to – Kelly Clarkson - Just Missed The Train
054. Plans for today – on9, read. maybe draw
055. Waiting for – 10th June. Eagle Ranch Camp!!! :) more leeches + snakes. YAY!
YOUR FUTURE:
058. Want kids? - dunno
059. Want to get married? - dunno
060. Careers in mind – maybe a photographer? graphic designer? dunno lar.
WHICH IS BETTER WITH GIRL/BOY?
068. Lips or eyes - Eyes!
070. Shorter or taller? – taller!
073. Nice stomach or nice arms – cant decide. Stomach. Hehe. Dunno la.
074. Sensitive or loud – sensitive?
075. Hook-up or relationship – wad a question!
077. Trouble maker or hesitant – a bit of both.
HAVE YOU EVER:
080. Lost glasses/contacts – doubt it.
081. Ran away from home – no point.
082. Held a gun/knife for self defense – nah. I dun need knives 2 defend myself.
083. Killed somebody – erm. i shall leave this up 2 u 2 decide. muahahahahahaha
084. Broken someone's heart – dunno. Probably. Maybe.
085. Been arrested – nope. too smart. lol
087. Cried when someone died – dun ask. Isn’t it a stupid question?
DO YOU BELIEVE IN:
089. Yourself - DUH
090. Miracles - depends
091. Love at first sight - no
092. Heaven – yea. sorta
093. Santa Claus - no
094. Sex on the first date – wad a question!
095. Kiss on the first date – who cares?
ANSWER TRUTHFULLY:
097. Is there one person you want to be with right now – yup but it’s for me to know and for you to find out.n its not wad u think it is…
098. Are you seriously happy with where you are in life – nope.
099. Do you believe in God – seriously? No.
100. Post as 100 truths and tag 10 people- yea…
TAG 10 PPL:
1. Huimin. hahaha
2. Yimay
3. Eva
4-10. anyone. haha
Eagle Ranch Camp!
can't wait!!! OMG. i got the cant wait for camp diesease from hui min!!!
yay! going out on mon... sad em cant go... it'll be weird withoug the shopaholic...
darn... i wish i could go leo forum... they left this morning... for penang!!! H1N1!!! LOL
oh well, at least theres CAMP!!!
the whole form 3 gang is going! for the 1st time in 3 years!!!
in case you don't know, d form 3 gang is:
~me
~huimin
~em
~jes
~gheek
we din like group up n make a gang but our seniors call us that. the form 3 gang. lol
whenever we say:"the 5 of us" they know which 5. haha
CAMP!!!
yay! going out on mon... sad em cant go... it'll be weird withoug the shopaholic...
darn... i wish i could go leo forum... they left this morning... for penang!!! H1N1!!! LOL
oh well, at least theres CAMP!!!
the whole form 3 gang is going! for the 1st time in 3 years!!!
in case you don't know, d form 3 gang is:
~me
~huimin
~em
~jes
~gheek
we din like group up n make a gang but our seniors call us that. the form 3 gang. lol
whenever we say:"the 5 of us" they know which 5. haha
CAMP!!!
*sigh*
i dunno y... jus suddenly thought abt it...
i miss my old friends... we used 2 spend d whole day 2gether... we could talk about nothing and still be entertained... we were close like siblings... we've been through it all, laughter, tears, fights...
now, i barely see u guys. except suzanne...
what happened?
we grew apart.
yerr. miss u guys... ):
[feel so random]
i miss my old friends... we used 2 spend d whole day 2gether... we could talk about nothing and still be entertained... we were close like siblings... we've been through it all, laughter, tears, fights...
now, i barely see u guys. except suzanne...
what happened?
we grew apart.
yerr. miss u guys... ):
[feel so random]
Random-ism
haha. dats probably d most random title ever...
ok: quick run through...
huimin likes d stuff they did yesterday. - good
siew ho blogged abt me. weird, inaccurate description... - okok la
siew ho is annoying me. - amusing
shawn tried to annoy me. - amusing + slightly annoying
nothing to do on facebook. - boring
siew ho is sulking cuz i wun tell him smthn. - funny
no close friends online. - frustrating + boring.
MSSD is during sports. - sad + happy + nervous + dreading it
im bored. no need 2 analyze anything. its damn obvious...
i just dun understand sometimes...!
ok: quick run through...
huimin likes d stuff they did yesterday. - good
siew ho blogged abt me. weird, inaccurate description... - okok la
siew ho is annoying me. - amusing
shawn tried to annoy me. - amusing + slightly annoying
nothing to do on facebook. - boring
siew ho is sulking cuz i wun tell him smthn. - funny
no close friends online. - frustrating + boring.
MSSD is during sports. - sad + happy + nervous + dreading it
im bored. no need 2 analyze anything. its damn obvious...
i just dun understand sometimes...!
4th RCC Meeting
ok... since siew ho was asking, here's my RRC meeting post...
it was... ok. i was a bit lost at 1st. heck yea! i was damn lost. since siew ho wasnt there yet. n i practically knew no one...
i felt and probably looked DAMN FRIGGIN WEIRD in stupid heels!!!!
but it was ok. la. grace made me write minutes although they actually send u d minutes next meeting. haihz...
n la salle pj ppl were like wondering why i was writing minutes. i must hav looked damn stupid.
wasnt looking 4ward 2 roll call cuz there were only 3 ppl frm dj but i think we did quite well. (better tahn monash. they only had 2 ppl)
i learnt a lot. got 2 noe some ppl, darius, fion, celine, john...
n suddenly, john asked siew ho 4 my msn, got my hp no and found my blog!!!
(wth??)
